I simply don’t know.
Do you know the feeling that you have gotten everything you’ve ever wanted, so much so that you couldn’t ask for more but there’s this uncertainty and feeling of incompleteness? It’s like a deafening roar of emptiness, despite the bright lights and loud cheers from everyone.
Is there anything that could satisfy and quench my thirst? Or is this atelophobia all over again? A paranoia I couldn’t cure. Pleasing everyone may not be possible - but it’s sadly the very thing I live for.
Am I happy?
I honestly just simply don’t know.
It was but no longer is.
